18 days left til my 21st birthday and still I have no plans whatsoever on what to do to celebrate it and also on what to post here but luckily there is this heartfelt poem written by my friend that I’d like to share with you.
No Dots, No Periods
It’s been almost a year when I gave up,
And it’s been almost a year when I screwed up
I’m really sorry girl if I left you hanging
But being with you gives me a really different feeling
On the other hand, keeping you makes things complicated
I’m being selfish in keeping you from all the things you needed
Nobody knows what I really feel
Behind those smiles, I’m really ill
It’s hard to read me when I don’t feel good
Because when you look at me I’m always in the mood
What you don’t know is that I think of us every night
Reflecting on how to make things right
I have the smile,
That catches your eye
You have those expressions,
That keeps me in your possession
I have the wit,
That knocks you of your feet
You have a heart,
And this is the most beautiful art
All I wish for is for everything to fall into place
but it seems that im the one who is out of place
I know what I really want in the future
But I’m being blinded of the present, and it’s a torture
I need to put myself together
So that our smiles would be forever
They say there is no such thing as forever
But I’m telling you that I’m ready to do whatever
No dots, no periods
Because I know that we will never end
I like this poem because it’s very honest and very straight to the point. It’s simple yet touching and sad but will also make you smile. I like it because I’ve never seen this side of my friend before and I’m happy because he’s trying to express his deepest feelings by writing it down. I’ve never given him compliments before so I guess that’s enough. Baka lumaki ulo, eh! But I’m really proud of him, writing and expressing, is something I cannot do. Seriously.
Honestly, I don’t know what love is.. Chos! All I know is that it is complicated.
BTW, This year I claimed it to be MY year and one of my wishes are “for everything to fall into place” thus the title.
So, to make things clear, I want everything to fall into place not only for me but also for the people around me and the people I care about. To my used-to-be-lovers friends, you know who you are, I want you both to be happy. I hope you can work it through or just figure out what you really want. But if you ask me, I’d want you guys back together.. again.. (Haha last dying wish na ba ‘to? Kinikilig kasi ako when you guys are together eh. Ang sweet lang. Nakakainis! Hahaha So syempre, naging selfish ako.)
Anyway, this is dedicated to that girl,
who was left hanging and has a heart that is the most beautiful art.